SMILE =)

it was midnight at about 4 . something was bothering me and i couldnt sleep at all.
i woke up.
held on to my bible and told God.
Please tell me what to do?
Two weeks ago , without anything happened , i have already accepted the fact and the truth and have already decided on what to do.
But suddenly, a problem was brought up again.
how irritating it is. aint it?
after hurting someone then hoping to continue the friendship? it aint easy .
anyways , i opened the bible and read.
It's in Song of Songs 7:1-9
after reading it , i felt much better knowing that God will be by my side , loving me and never let me feel hurt again.
Then , today , i told the truth to that person (x) as i wanted x to know that after the first day the decision has been made, i have already told x that i will 'delete' him away from my life. and it was even in x's blog! how can x not know ? you have got it written word by word.
Indeed , i agree with you God hasnt told me to leave a brother/ sister . but He never told me not to leave them as well. there will be a time where we are gonna leave each other. its just a matter of when and how. physically or mentally?
I would hope that things will no longer spread from one to another.
when i say , i will leave it to Him means i have already left it to Him. and that's when i got my peace.
If i did something wrong that He doesnt want me to do , i believe i will feel uneasy doing it.
But i never did. Until the whole problem occur again . that's when i got that frustrated feeling visiting me again.
i never liked that feeling. I want to be happy.
No doubt , i want my friends to be happy as well. so i hope to minimize as many problems as possible.
none the less , i hope x will know what to do. you are no longer young and immature. you already chose her and have her and you are already living a happy and contented life. not all things will go according to your manner.
I am glad you have already found the one u really truly love.
May God bless you in everything you do as well as your relationship .
I will disappear from the group. but not from God. that i have already decided. again , its just the matter of time .
I love you Lord . i love you Jesus , Jehova Rafa , my beloved Father .

take care