in need of a hug from you...

i know this might sound insane. but i just finished a taiwanese series. i started watching it on youtube since morning at 10? well, the name is called silence , shen qing mi ma. its.. beautiful but exteremely saddening. Romantic enough but interesting. you wont be able to guess whats happening next. unlike the korean nor the normal HK movies, this is way better. well , if u won't mind a movie that will make you cry for your whole noon and night.

this series , surprisingly i got to know it from NTV7 / 8tv. either one. i watched it once. few weeks ago. but somehow , today i got hooked up with it and i decided to finish it by today. although i know. i am definitely not prepared for Monday's paper...

this movie reminds me how short life is. you might not know what will happen in.. a few days time.. a few weeks time? anything can happen . its not in our control .. right? i dont know whether is it because i am being pessimistic or .. i dont know what do you call this. but i think you should spend ur time appropriately , spend your time with your family / those that you care most. what if , one day ,
suddenly , someone close to you.. just .. went on with their life without you. what will you feel? will you regret not treating them properly before they go on? i have that in my thoughts . quite some time ago. i think few years back? i dont know why. maybe its because i am too.. sensitive / sentimental. .. but i just want all of you to know, thanks alot. for backing me up whenever i fall. After watching these series , i suppose / believe / pray that i will know more about how i should handle my feelings , facing consequences. its a nice movie. believe me.

right now, i havent actually met the right one. yea. you might think it's still way early... yea.. and those are just series/movies anyways. how is that gonna happen in our life right? haha. i wont want to ask more. i just hope , those that have found yours , appreciate them. but never ever betray what your parents say. NEVER do so. i love them so much... they arent around right now. all in a trip.. i am gonna miss them so much when i am away from them. another thing... have you ever wondered? if you have maybe.. 1 month left? what will you do? haha. i never thought of that before. but i think what i will do is to spend my time with my family... what will happen in the future.. we all dont know.. but what i know is that, no matter what happens, i will not leave my parents alone. especially my mom. she is just a wonderful lady. my dad as well. just because of me , he has to continue working. sometimes when i hear him telling my mom how tired he feels .. it hurts my heart. it really does. i dont want to see any of them suffer. for me. and there is another him.. he might not be the one for my future. but right now , i feel like seeing him .. i miss his hug.. i really do.
damn. i hate this show. but i guess i just love .. to see how will life be when i will be facing all these...... i love my dad. i love my mom. i love my brother . i love my sister. i love ferliz. i love all of you. i always do. i love Jesus. i love God. but i am pretty sure about one thing. no matter where we are , He will always be with us. He will send angels to protect us.. cause He loves us as much as we love our parents. He is our Father.

Dear all ,
i feel grateful and thankful for all your presence in my life. Getting to know you is my 'fok hei' =) i love you all! please please give all your friends a hug whenever you see them? it means alot to me. and i do hope it means alot to you too!
HUGS!!!!
and one more thing. to they guys , i know you might be thinking i am NUTS or sumthing like that .. but this is just the way i express my feelings. we girls are weak inside out. but you guys might now be. we dont know. but to tell you all the truth , we always love to feel loved. .
God Bless
here are some.. scenes of the show. feel free to cry like me! ;)